Out of the Darkness
And I will bring the blind by a way they knew not; I will lead them in paths that they have not known: I will make darkness light before them, and crooked things straight. These things will I do unto them, and not forsake them. Isaiah 42:16 ​
​I was in the clutches of evil. I descended into the deepest levels of madness and insanity. Only a miracle could save ​me. Read the story of how Jesus Christ rescued me. My story is told by my beloved friend who faithfully stood by me through my darkest hours. It is our hope that if you have a loved one who has been plagued by the powers of darkness that you persevere because there is hope!
This testimony is written for those who have torment of mind and soul that is so nightmarish and completely unbearable that even the minutes that go by seem like hours. The things that occur are so frightening that they are afraid to share them with others fearing that they'd be mocked with disbelief, unfairly labeled, or even locked away in a mental institution. It's for them that I am writing this story. I want them to have hope and to persevere, and know that they can be free even though they feel devastated and see no end in sight. I am an eye-witness to all the events that occurred. The things I saw and experienced with Alex I found quite perplexing. But it was undeniable in the end that demons were involved. There's no way a person could "act" when it came to what happened.
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During our quest to get him help we knocked on every available door. We went to local Clergy, Psychiatrists and Psychologists, Medication, Supplements, The Emergency Room, Medical doctors and Specialists, Secular Counselors, Christian Counselors, An Occult Crime Researcher, Churches, Deliverance Ministers and Deliverance Churches, and Miracle Ministries. Some offered help but it didn't work. Others thought it was best not to help, and some had no clue. Finally some avenues did help, and a breakthrough occurred after a very long struggle. I feel that everyone we turned to did the best they knew to do at that moment.
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I am writing this story to encourage those people like me who are searching for help on behalf of a loved one. The frustrations and setbacks were many. There were many disappointments and trials. There were times of total exhaustion and moments of anger as well as grief. I even made disastrous mistakes, and at times had poor judgment. I had reached a point of even wanting to walk away when it all seemed hopeless. There were many tears and much sorrow when our dreams were shattered. But as Alex always said, "Before the sun comes the rain." To all of you warriors out there this is the promise I have from God to give to you ~
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Galatians 6:9 "And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not."
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Psalm 126:5 "They that sow in tears shall reap in joy."
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Press here to read the first Chapter - Saving a Soul
Addendum:
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This testimony did not turn out the way you would expect. I had tucked Alex's story away for the last seven years. Only now do I feel that I can release it. Many deliverance teachers are exploring where they might have gone wrong or how to do deliverance right. Many have concluded that they should do more than just cast out demons but address the underlying wounds a person has. There has been much debate about how to handle Multiple Personality Disorder. There has been much debate about the inclusion of Psychotropic drugs for people with diagnosed "mental disorders." My intention is not to lay blame on anyone. I think everyone who tried to help Alex did the best they knew to do at the time, and I am thankful for them. I still do recommended all the ministries who tried to help him. Without the help that he did get, it would not have been possible to have the time I had with him. He would always tell me he was living on borrowed time. It is my wish that others might avoid the same mistakes we made. It is also my desire that people realize that you if you follow the golden rule of Scripture in the New Testament, to love God first with your whole being, to also remember the second part of that rule. Which is that you love your neighbor as yourself. You must love yourself in order to love others. If you have self hatred you are not abiding in the love of God. Jesus thought you were worth dying for. I am releasing this story in hopes that it might benefit those who assist others in deliverance.